Frustrations....

What is frustration? Frustrate: To cause feelings of discouragement or bafflement in. I was reading thru the definitions..somehow, i could not really understand it..weird, for someone who uses the word on occasions...well......

What gets us frustrated? Is it the big things or small things in life? Where does it stem from?

From little daily disruptions in our lives? changes? people? character, emotions? habits? ......

My siblings and i were having a discussion about frustrations or being frustrated...well...it ended up having someone being frustrated at the whole conversation...well..see how things work out huh? i felt bad...i guess it drove one to feel frustrated hey...well..i think frustration comes about when maybe one doesnt understand something they want or need to but cant get it...or cant get someone to understand something and hhhmmm so in a way...discouraged?? or dissapointed? upset?

Recently, i guess its an emotional week for me...many things...(ranked in order..haha....) hormones? schools starting, new changes, uncertainties, fears not understood, emotions not understood, giving too much, accomodating to others needs and wants, not having my emotional needs met, not being able to undertstand myself at times....i guess these bring frustrations to a high...and soon, anger manipulates thoughts that could hurt people''s hearts, mood....i guess i did just yesterday and the day before...
I let emotions get to me...and soon frustrations set in...then restrained thoughts, become words... then feelings of my our heart hurts....feelings of sadness and confusion set it...my mind lost... i pray for my heart to help me...it comes and goes...the pull and push factor fight for what
is right...what my heart chooses....its an internal battle with mind and heart....Love helped to console and alleviate the confusion and hurts running thru top speed in my head...but little words spoken....shouldve been? or shouldnt've been? i chose my answer... i guess in between somewhere, Mr. D had a part to play...using fears and weaknesses to instil hurt upon people we love....enough said....
So many fears...some spoken, some unspoken....some felt...i guess i need to pray more...be positive and continue to believe and be by the side of those i need to be with.....
God help me thru this....give me strength to subdue my frustrations, wisdom to give me clear thoughts in times of confusion, courage to overcome my fears that hinder me in life, and Love to open my heart and hearts of people around me so that we can recieve the love that is Yours to have. Thank you Lord for looking out for me and always bein there for me even in the deepest and darkest times...I Love You! *hugs*