A Comfort That Never Fails...

Its good to know when someone's there to comfort you, and know in our hearts that things will be alright....
I seek comfort in God, in family, friends, strangers that become friends....

Its a kind of warmth that builds up inside our hearts that give peace in our days...our minds, our hearts....

About some 2 months ago when i was sharing with a loved one about how God is always in our lives and i believe He works for our good and how our trials in life has got to do with God and his doings so we learn and realise that we need him to believe and trust Him in ALL that we do, and that He has everything to do with whats in store in our lives the past, present and future..and how some others around and even myself can be so oblivious to the signs that He sends us in many forms and ways when we ask them in prayer...and when i shared this to my friend, and i know it was out of concern or just the view of my loved one, mentioned that i was too reliant on God. And i just smiled...i took it positively, what ran thru my mind was that its a good thing that i was...and it made me see how i take on life's challenges and trials ahead, thou my loved one may not see it the way i did and do, i believe one day it will be understood and recollection and truth will set in the heart...Somehow i was alittle discouraged for a moment, and certain things were compromised such as my Faith dwindled alittle, i was decieved slowly(which i realised after reading the site) and before i knew it, i fell into a trap that i didnt even know i was in!!...until this weird website incident happened.....

I turned on my Laptop at home and i wanted to blog, i typed in my blog and name on blogspot, i think i keyed in something alittle wrongly..and i never expected this website to come up...i was in between feeling amazed and alittle freaked out...why so? this website, has the same name as i do (my blog), my first and my last, the only differences were minor, wont spell it out here but....what was the possiblity of that i thought?? And to such a site?? it was a sign...a sign for me... *smiles*

Maybe you can go visit the site: http://shereen.simon.blogpot.com/
(im taking a risk here *winks*)

it was a site on Bible readings and incredible testimonies of God, the past , present and the future...i started reading, and i was hooked...for many reasons... so hooked until i missed calls and msgs from friends that asked me out for the night...also, the main reason i had this desire to read on was the fact that i know this was a sign to pull me back out from the 'trap' that i was in...falling back into darkness and bringing myself back into the light.... I brought me back to what i read a few years back...and realization began to set in....

When i started reading, i felt so guilty for my sins, esp for the past weeks...and i prayed and i teared and felt remorse...and i realised that sometimes, even when we think we are strong enough to say it wont happen, it happens when we least expect it and when we are caught unaware...'An idle mind, brings opportunities for the evils doing and advantage'. so yeah, that was what happened, i BLAME NO ONE...not even the person that was in the situation with me... i believed it was a trial i had to go thru to grow in faith again and this time more...to learn from my actions and how easily we are decieved, unknowingly.....
"my sin": My weakness played a part in this, as we know, the evil uses our weaknesses to bring us down in to darkness whenever the opportunity arises...and it worked, i fell into a trap which i thought was perfectly fine until a sign brought me back...this was the weird part, to me i know it is and was a Sin, but i felt that it wasnt then when i committed it...i felt numb, i had no feelings about it during and after....and usually i do, i usually feel very strongly against it, but somehow, it felt empty...my heart was empty....i didnt feel anything literally in my heart...my mind was telling me, somehow something's not right...i should be feeling something but i am not....*was puzzled* i shared this with a dear friend of mine, that when i went to church, i didnt feel any remorse over what happened and i found it strange, and i really had no feelings until i recieved God somewhere thru...then i felt safe again, somehow relieved that i started feeling again...but still didnt realise that i compromised my faith...and i felt that i needed to start over again to build it back up...which i believe i did after that strange pop-up website i read...
After this, i thought hard and prayed and prayed...for wisdom, courage and strength to do what i needed to do...i was torn between certain people and choices...but things fall into place in time...i needed patience to sort things out...in God's time...i believe i have and still is...cos some uncertainties lie ahead...
I spoke my heart and mind about my weakness and my decision about the sin and act, and how i need to stay away from it for many reasons...one of which is God and the others, my purpose in life, my goals, my future, not jeopardising anyones future for that matter, cos it is unfair or let's say, if that were to happen, there would drastic changes in my life and in my friends life...though i would see it positively, but my goals would probably change and its not what i want to happen...i want it to be the right time and for the right reasons...cos i believe that God is guiding me and i dont want to throw away all that has been planned for me for the past years...many many many things would change....many i tell you honestly...i know that in my heart and i trust my heart....

As days pass, and feelings shared, a sense of comfort began to set in again....i believe for the right reasons...but somehow somethings are still unsettled...i pray for that day to come so that i can start the comfort cycle again...and prayerfully stick by my choice and not fall into temptation again...A feeling of comfort from the word of God never fails to bring peace in our hearts......
Peacefully Comfortable...