Sweet Somethings....
May Day, i read a colleagues email on the origin of May day...there was too much to read and i for one dont like reading like history or stuff like that unless they interest me... like how social psycho, or human psycho or like human behaviour...really really interesting..ahaha..anyways... heres the gist of May Day..
'Is a celebration of the social and economic achievements of the international labour movement.'
well, it was a good day..My family went out for breakfast at LJS, we love th BF there... haha...we had it at TP entertainment centre...guess it was the nearest LJS around our area...then we headed to J8 to get tix for IRON MAN...was a pretty neat show to watch..and yeah, was cool la...
But not the whole family was out...my jie was at her friends place...well, she didnt know the plans so yeah, she made plans on her own, if not it wouldve been a whole family affair thing..like how it used to be years back...but well, im still grateful and blessed how God works in my family's life...
*winks*
He's been around since we were all created...He helped my family grow from nothing into something and more that has yet to come..i believe...i see...but we need to be guided to follow what's to come and become....if not we'll be misguided and we fall....come to think of it...i had this dream... it was not a good dream but i take it as a warning dream..to warn me of my conscience and my actions lately...
let me share it with you...it was a dream of finding something, it was my kindergarten for some reason, i figured why i dreamt of that..i was going back or needed to go back to the basics...to me it means, i was running deep into some misguide, and i needed to get back to who i was before..like to cleanse myself from something worldly...you may not understand what i mean or think its silly, but those who do, good for you...ok, there were many things that happened...
while trying to find this place, i encournterd alot of obstacles...first, i was driving, and was at a junction, sudddenly, there was this big wave that came from infront and i thought it wasnt goin to hit me, but it did...the weird thing was, the next moment from being in the car, i was standing like 100 metres viewing the sight from the right side of my car..i saw the wave pushing and crushing it halfway but somehow it was protected by God...and i was like oh dear, how can i get out of this....then scene changed...i was still getting to the destination, i thought i knew how to cos i remembered but i didnt, then i went into a different path which i thought i was parallel to the road i was supposed to take, which seemed to take me there but somehow it didnt...i got lost...i called my mom and asked for help...she explained it to me...then i followed the instructions, along the way there were obstacles....
and these obstacles to be honest, were my past dreams which frightened the hell out of me...ok, maybe i share with you one of my 'hair-raising-send-cold-shivers-thru-my-whole-body kinda dream....
Lets side track for a while...In the old dream, i dreamt that i had to get somewhere, and i found this forested area, which made a broad path lined by huge trees, for me to walk thru, it was really dark and eerie place and i knew that when i walked thru this, there were evil spirits lurking and ready to come forth toward me...and as i walked thru, i was running as fast as i could but it was so hard and tiring and i never seemed to be moving forward thru to the end of it...you know the feeling like at end of the race of 400m, legs are too tired that they just cant be lifted any higher or strengths to even go faster...at this point, when i knew there were spirits among the trees and coming forward to harm and chase me, cold shivers FILLED my body literally and i woke up, my whole body cold and scared shit i tell you! i prayed and prayed...cos it felt SO real!......anyways.. this was one of the dream scene that appeared in this most recent scary dream...
ok, where was i?....hhmm...i tried finding my kindergarten, and obstacles, like seeing this familiar scary place almost brought the shivers again in my dream, but this time, i felt the cold rush stop at my hands and arms only....i was determinded, i started 'flying' up over the dark trees...but i was struggling really hard...then halfway, i almost lost my flight and i saw another of my scary dream scene 2, and i even struggled more to go higher...as high i as could go with as much might as i could give...i was flying to my kindergarten...then i thought i was lost...but i saw the vacinity...i landed, soon to realise that it was abandoned, and it moved else where, i was so discouraged and afraid cos i knew what was behind me...i was afraid to go back, so i walked and saw a man, asked him and he helped me...said its nearby, just up ahead... then i somehow remembered that yeah, i knew it moved and know where it was...i walked and reached it, then across the road to it, there were parliment people...were all in white, they seem good...and i was with them on the same side of the road...i was somehow relieved...i believe they were there to judge me for what i have done...then i met someone familiar to walk with me across, but cant quite remember who now...i crossed the road when the traffic light changed...in a way i felt safe....and then i woke up...when i awoke, i felt like i neednt go back to sleep to continue the dream, i knew that was what i needed to dream for now...weird feeling but i trust it....
I guess from this dream, it had many signs to my conscious awake life....let me interpret it...
'Is a celebration of the social and economic achievements of the international labour movement.'
well, it was a good day..My family went out for breakfast at LJS, we love th BF there... haha...we had it at TP entertainment centre...guess it was the nearest LJS around our area...then we headed to J8 to get tix for IRON MAN...was a pretty neat show to watch..and yeah, was cool la...
But not the whole family was out...my jie was at her friends place...well, she didnt know the plans so yeah, she made plans on her own, if not it wouldve been a whole family affair thing..like how it used to be years back...but well, im still grateful and blessed how God works in my family's life...
*winks*
He's been around since we were all created...He helped my family grow from nothing into something and more that has yet to come..i believe...i see...but we need to be guided to follow what's to come and become....if not we'll be misguided and we fall....come to think of it...i had this dream... it was not a good dream but i take it as a warning dream..to warn me of my conscience and my actions lately...
let me share it with you...it was a dream of finding something, it was my kindergarten for some reason, i figured why i dreamt of that..i was going back or needed to go back to the basics...to me it means, i was running deep into some misguide, and i needed to get back to who i was before..like to cleanse myself from something worldly...you may not understand what i mean or think its silly, but those who do, good for you...ok, there were many things that happened...
while trying to find this place, i encournterd alot of obstacles...first, i was driving, and was at a junction, sudddenly, there was this big wave that came from infront and i thought it wasnt goin to hit me, but it did...the weird thing was, the next moment from being in the car, i was standing like 100 metres viewing the sight from the right side of my car..i saw the wave pushing and crushing it halfway but somehow it was protected by God...and i was like oh dear, how can i get out of this....then scene changed...i was still getting to the destination, i thought i knew how to cos i remembered but i didnt, then i went into a different path which i thought i was parallel to the road i was supposed to take, which seemed to take me there but somehow it didnt...i got lost...i called my mom and asked for help...she explained it to me...then i followed the instructions, along the way there were obstacles....
and these obstacles to be honest, were my past dreams which frightened the hell out of me...ok, maybe i share with you one of my 'hair-raising-send-cold-shivers-thru-my-whole-body kinda dream....
Lets side track for a while...In the old dream, i dreamt that i had to get somewhere, and i found this forested area, which made a broad path lined by huge trees, for me to walk thru, it was really dark and eerie place and i knew that when i walked thru this, there were evil spirits lurking and ready to come forth toward me...and as i walked thru, i was running as fast as i could but it was so hard and tiring and i never seemed to be moving forward thru to the end of it...you know the feeling like at end of the race of 400m, legs are too tired that they just cant be lifted any higher or strengths to even go faster...at this point, when i knew there were spirits among the trees and coming forward to harm and chase me, cold shivers FILLED my body literally and i woke up, my whole body cold and scared shit i tell you! i prayed and prayed...cos it felt SO real!......anyways.. this was one of the dream scene that appeared in this most recent scary dream...
ok, where was i?....hhmm...i tried finding my kindergarten, and obstacles, like seeing this familiar scary place almost brought the shivers again in my dream, but this time, i felt the cold rush stop at my hands and arms only....i was determinded, i started 'flying' up over the dark trees...but i was struggling really hard...then halfway, i almost lost my flight and i saw another of my scary dream scene 2, and i even struggled more to go higher...as high i as could go with as much might as i could give...i was flying to my kindergarten...then i thought i was lost...but i saw the vacinity...i landed, soon to realise that it was abandoned, and it moved else where, i was so discouraged and afraid cos i knew what was behind me...i was afraid to go back, so i walked and saw a man, asked him and he helped me...said its nearby, just up ahead... then i somehow remembered that yeah, i knew it moved and know where it was...i walked and reached it, then across the road to it, there were parliment people...were all in white, they seem good...and i was with them on the same side of the road...i was somehow relieved...i believe they were there to judge me for what i have done...then i met someone familiar to walk with me across, but cant quite remember who now...i crossed the road when the traffic light changed...in a way i felt safe....and then i woke up...when i awoke, i felt like i neednt go back to sleep to continue the dream, i knew that was what i needed to dream for now...weird feeling but i trust it....
I guess from this dream, it had many signs to my conscious awake life....let me interpret it...
- Finding kindergarten, Going back to basics, where i first learned whats good and how to be good...in reality, i need to find it...go back to my faith...to God...
- Many obstacles - The difficulties and temptations in my life that ive fallen into sin for which brought or brings great struggles in my life...and has squeezed out strengths in me to make me weaker and soon fall into sin again..downward spiral...but also tests my faith in God...which brings me back to life again....
- Watching from afar my car being crushed by waves, i was "saved" and i was there to watch what could happen to me, 'die' if i stayed in the car and not move or choose the right path...
- Revisting old 'cold-shiver' dreams...but this time i overcame them - means i fell in to sin again but now, i am stronger and had more faith to overcome them physically and mentally...spiritually, thats another story....but it was a struggle...
- Struggling - taking the wrong path (Sin) gave me struggles which i couldnt almost overcome...my thinking was that i can overcome my struggles, which is not wrong interpretation, but i guess i figured, that its cos of sin that WILL BRING ME struggles and will lead me astray from my purpose in life....which i dont want that to happen...
- Getting lost in life and then getting help from people around and family and friends - I get lost when i choose a different path...wrong path (bad path - SIN) when i do get lost, God gives me helpers and signs along the way to bring me back to the light or the right path, goin back to basics...though it was a struggle to get off the wrong path....
- Parliment people in white - angels that are to judge me and also help me...shield me from my past and build a wall so i dont fall back into the darkness again...
- Reaching my destination safe...God will always be there to guide us thru life...even if we sin, He will always be there to guide us safely back, BUT with FREEWILL to choose to go back to Him...we will reach our destination and our goals in life....
moral of the story, its a warning of my actions in reality..Even if i think i can over come the obstacles when i fall into sin and darkness, there's are many many times where i could fall back and be misguided to fail in life, thru the tough struggles faced as consequences...to warn me that i will lose track of my purpose if i continue to 'sin' and i will not reach my purpose that has been planned for me with God's Love.....it's a blessing that im physically and mentally capable as a person...but then again when it comes to sin and life, its NEITHER Physical or Mental capabilities that will win this race...its' being Spiritually strong in my faith that will take me thru....well, there you go...my dream... weird but true... :) i Need more faith, strength and courage to help me....So i pray.....
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Friday, May 02, 2008
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