Drained...

Todays a pretty short day for lessons...but meeting was right after...
i feel and felt really drained....eyes were closing...and my body is aching...from the stress...i havent had a massage for ages...and i really need one....*haiz*

Today, i had quite a fun time with my dear students...
They were having a trial practice for their cookies for their practical exam...and well, i see that i was happy with the outcome from this class...:) this class is a really chatty class, but fun one..
anyways, the thing that i was smling about and laughing about was that, i tried all their cookies...haha..i dunno why but i had thie urge to try it all..aha.. and pretty good la... anyways...
These students sometimes don have as much common sense as they actually should have...sorry but im just being honest... this student, they were putting the chocolate topping and coconut flakes on the cookies, they didnt even think of where they were going to place the cookies after their decoration...haha... sometimes they just need to think alittle further to ensure that they think thru all the steps..thats why planning is so important...anyways...my practice is that i never give my students the answers straight away, i ask them a question to probe them to answer their own question.. so that they think! hahaha.. and it usually works...so yeah...i believe it helps them in time....anyways...
This was the conversation that followed, 'eh, where to put ah'? (Asking another student, other student looked around and didnt give answer and looked at her, expecting her to answer..how funny)
Then i said, Where to put ah? here. (Pointing to my mouth) ahha..
student laughed...and she asked me to leave it open and she fed me..haaha...i felt abit weird, having a student feed me.. but at the same time, i was cool and enjoyed it too...hahaha...
it may not be funny but i didnt use to be so easy going with students when it comes to closeness to students as in 'friend'friend', ive always had this mindset that, i was pretty strict and firm with my students esp in the first year of teaching...then i learned...soft approach was ,more me than the hard, but when i used my hard approach it works too!! so yeah...i think im blessed...besides, i used to have the need to have a good image to them...but as years pass, i learned alot and had a good balance...these days, for the past 2 years, ive never shouted at any student...reprimanded alittle at times but ialways try to stay away....i could go on and on..but..anyhoos....and this year's resolution helped and there are also alot of other factors that helped me in this too..ahhaa..friends, experiences, experienced teaching etc...i guess being too hard up and serious all the time is no fun...in sch especially...anyways....

After the meeting, i was strolling to the canteen and i went to get some food from the canteen..lo mai kai. that was all left..*pout* so late la of course..ahaha..thats my lunch...well, not that i enjo ylo mai kai very much, in fact, i dont really do...anyways...i bought it, squeezed some chilli sauce on it.. then the auntie reminded me to take the spoon and i did...then i walked off to get back to the staff room...i was so tired...my students were standing near by... after walking some distance like 20m, i looked at my hand and spoon, then realised something was not right...ahha... i forgot to take my food...and i spoke to myself....then walked back...ahha..took it and walked toward my students...only one student saw what happened and she laughed...hahaha...i laughed too...and i told her to keep cool and be quiet about it..hahaha..her friends were asking what happened..haha...it was funny and fun...made me laugh and smile and thats what i love...it did help to take away some stress...hahaha...
but well, it wasnt embarassing la... i was actually quite cool about it...and i learnt that we neednt be embarassed about somethings in life cos its part of making us humble too...ahha.. i learned this from my sec. sch sec 5. form teacher...it was nice to have her...hhmmm...

I realised that i was living up to my 2008 resolution, was to be myself more and open my heart to love and people more...its like that, im quite a different person in school, im more low profile and it feels quite restrictive, cos, for one, im usually really jumpy and cheerful...but somehow i cant be like that in my school.. for whatever reasons... i believe its got very much to do with my pride...like how people see me...like i need to be perfect or not make any mistakes...and well, it has hindered me from accomplishing many things in my life and well, taking opportunities when they are right in front of me....but i guess things will work out in time...when i decide to choose and make a difference in my life and others.....hhmm....well, i guess slowly i am seeing my resolution.......and its good...i am happier in terms of me and my life...not really work...just well...


Im supposed to msg a friend now, 4pm to tell him if im having dinner with him....i feel like cos i think itd be good to catch up, after so long....but on the other hand, im also thinking of someone else..just that he didnt ask...not sure if he has plans though... well, will wait til he calls...

anyways...i think i better get back to work...plan plan plan...hhmmm....