Out bursts!!!

This is probably just an out burst of emotions stroed up inside that has been raging in turmoil....
SO please forgive me....
Thou the 1 week of holidays was a break from the usual terror....i feel that it isnt enuf...
im struggling so much, i havent done work, cos i just don feel like doin anything..
ive lost my fire for doing what i need to do and right now, im just feeling lost, impatient, irritated, enraged, pissed of and drained by what has been happening the past months since this year started...ARGH!!!!
what the sheesh man....there are som may rich people in the country and they are living such a good life and enjoying it..not that im saying they are happy...but its just the dealing with a bunch of terrors can be so straining on my heart and mind that it just breaks down..im soon goin to break down!!!

Im screaming inside, im crying inside,
Someone please help me, cos im drowning
And im getting all tired...
Tired of all the running,
Tired of all the talking,
The sharings, the reasoning,
so many things to do, with so little time,
Is it what im supposed to do?
is this what i chose to do?
Was this what i get myself into?
Is the works of "hungry" men, competiting to rise to the top,
and choking on every penny that we have to scrimp, thats worth nothing at times...
Work so hard to get what we get, and status and paper is ...

Right now, i feel better, not cos im writing, but just because someone's taken it off my mind... i'll think about it tmrw... :)
For now, i'll continue my chat.....good night sweeties....