Perspectives..Intention...Judgement...
im happy for someone...he made me smile...well as far as ive seen...its good...not sure about how he's doin deep down thou'..anyways, i'll pray to God that he knows what he is doin...and answer my prayers in His time...
He's probably someone that i'll remember in life...for who he is,ive told him at times, he's got a good heart and it shows..but he doesnt see it as yet.. or maybe he does, he's probably modest...I think of him everynow and then...he makes me smile he make me frown...a good mix of emotions...thou it is pretty clear to me,but im still confused about certain things...i wanna be sure, but my pride holds me back for some reason...i dun wanna jump...
I know for sure, but im stubborn...think long term...dun think about what if's...and regret later? well, sometimes if its for the better and its logical, is there really anything to regret at all?
anyways.. think im swaying out of the point here...
Life is hard and an up hill climb...you say people judge..yes they do..i used to feel so inferior and so affected by what people say or judge me as..that i get so paranoid...but you know what? it just made me worse..made me not open up or so conscious about what i say or do or how i think that i just shut...i close...i retreat...i think...i worry...i hurt...i cry...thats how i used to be...now its better...its different...i learned and im trying.. im happier..i am...i'v learned to let go...ive learned my weaknesses in sins and asked to be strengthened...im still getting there..alot of learning to do...skills to practice and be a stronger and better person...
you know...now i think about it, i was always at the losing end...i felt like i didnt want to hear all these comments or how the others opinions or comments affected me was because of my PRIDE! one of my weaknessess that ive figured out.. when i reflected and learned that Pride was a hindrance in my life...(which i had God to Thank for) I came to understand the meaning of certain things in life that happen...i began to understand what letting go means, what humility means, i began to see things from a different perspective...yes, there are many perspectives in life cos people made them so...but so what? if u have values that are right and morally upright, i guess you should know what is right from wrong and good from bad...if you are gonna make it seem like you are always right and have the right of way or if people have to always accustom to your needs and wants, then i suggest you take a deeper look and reflect why you are here on earth for...YOU NEED TO START thinking of others more, thou not entirely forgetting about yourselves too thou...You are not PERFECT...you can try to be..but you couldnt be...
You are NOT THE ONLY ONE around..youve got to think of others as well, (its hard to explain it thru words or you may get a different view from me as i continue writing, but well..) anyways, as i was saying, yo might say,"others should do the same what, try to understand me" well, do you even understand yourself why you go about thinking or acting the way you do and then actively living or practice the way life was made to be lived...when i came to understand what this meant, i saw how my life was was given meaning...its hard..im still searching and finding a balance and meaning...i am trust me.. im still waivering and uncertain in truth...trying to get more information or questions answered about life and events...will take it as God Gives them to me...
sometimes people say things not because they are passing judgement, but just makimg conversation...or being themselves.. so arent you too passing judgement on those you think are making a judgement when they are actually not? or have no intention to judge? its just for that spilt second or time that we get judged..and either get blamed, reprimanded, punished, hated, or loved for it...ive understood the meaning
You can judge me on earth, but you cant judge me up in heaven...intentions are clear...my sorrows, hurt and bitterness disappear...ive learned to let go...im happier...i am...
He's probably someone that i'll remember in life...for who he is,ive told him at times, he's got a good heart and it shows..but he doesnt see it as yet.. or maybe he does, he's probably modest...I think of him everynow and then...he makes me smile he make me frown...a good mix of emotions...thou it is pretty clear to me,but im still confused about certain things...i wanna be sure, but my pride holds me back for some reason...i dun wanna jump...
I know for sure, but im stubborn...think long term...dun think about what if's...and regret later? well, sometimes if its for the better and its logical, is there really anything to regret at all?
anyways.. think im swaying out of the point here...
Life is hard and an up hill climb...you say people judge..yes they do..i used to feel so inferior and so affected by what people say or judge me as..that i get so paranoid...but you know what? it just made me worse..made me not open up or so conscious about what i say or do or how i think that i just shut...i close...i retreat...i think...i worry...i hurt...i cry...thats how i used to be...now its better...its different...i learned and im trying.. im happier..i am...i'v learned to let go...ive learned my weaknesses in sins and asked to be strengthened...im still getting there..alot of learning to do...skills to practice and be a stronger and better person...
you know...now i think about it, i was always at the losing end...i felt like i didnt want to hear all these comments or how the others opinions or comments affected me was because of my PRIDE! one of my weaknessess that ive figured out.. when i reflected and learned that Pride was a hindrance in my life...(which i had God to Thank for) I came to understand the meaning of certain things in life that happen...i began to understand what letting go means, what humility means, i began to see things from a different perspective...yes, there are many perspectives in life cos people made them so...but so what? if u have values that are right and morally upright, i guess you should know what is right from wrong and good from bad...if you are gonna make it seem like you are always right and have the right of way or if people have to always accustom to your needs and wants, then i suggest you take a deeper look and reflect why you are here on earth for...YOU NEED TO START thinking of others more, thou not entirely forgetting about yourselves too thou...You are not PERFECT...you can try to be..but you couldnt be...
You are NOT THE ONLY ONE around..youve got to think of others as well, (its hard to explain it thru words or you may get a different view from me as i continue writing, but well..) anyways, as i was saying, yo might say,"others should do the same what, try to understand me" well, do you even understand yourself why you go about thinking or acting the way you do and then actively living or practice the way life was made to be lived...when i came to understand what this meant, i saw how my life was was given meaning...its hard..im still searching and finding a balance and meaning...i am trust me.. im still waivering and uncertain in truth...trying to get more information or questions answered about life and events...will take it as God Gives them to me...
sometimes people say things not because they are passing judgement, but just makimg conversation...or being themselves.. so arent you too passing judgement on those you think are making a judgement when they are actually not? or have no intention to judge? its just for that spilt second or time that we get judged..and either get blamed, reprimanded, punished, hated, or loved for it...ive understood the meaning
You can judge me on earth, but you cant judge me up in heaven...intentions are clear...my sorrows, hurt and bitterness disappear...ive learned to let go...im happier...i am...
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Friday, March 03, 2006
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