i'm walking away...

I walked away too many a times...
But the Many a times, had me walking back...
What's is wrong? I can't understand!!!
It frustrates me to core, knowing nothing more!
But answers said, its right infront of me!
Why can't i understand it? Why can't i see?
What's wrong with you, why can't it just be.
To accept the uncontrolled changes and be happy free.

You want the standard? You expect the best,
Nothing wrong with that, but you scare off the rest.
Do it with love and encouragement,
Just knowing that i'd be loved even if i don't do well.
Would help us alot.

Why do u get angry? Why get upset?
Why can't you assure me, that it's ok.
In stead you get upset no matter what the ways...
I'm tired of it, i dont want to be dead.
I am afraid that i'd grow tired, and lay in my death bed,
Without ever knowing if i ever made you happy,
Knowing that the last thing i did made you upset.

It's not all me, you're part of it too,
But you dont seem to see it, so i get the pointed finger,
And your angry stare, who would love you? Would i dare?
Sadly or softly, i walk back, back into the matter...
Thinking to myself, my mind begins to chatter.
.....It all starts again...My mind chatters too much!!!!!!

Pls relief me of my mindless chatter!!